I read somewhere, don’t ask me where, that if you say something out loud or think it “too loudly” then it would happen. Somewhere along the line I started believing it and living by it.
When I don’t want something to happen, I won’t believe it, or fully believe it. If I speak of it, even if in my heart of hearts I truly believe something is or isn’t going to happen, I will talk as if there is an extreme likelihood of the opposite happening. I even guard my thoughts and try to just not think about what is or isn’t going to happen so nothing will go wrong.
I know life isn’t perfect, but really? I sound like I’ve gone superstitious (which I’ve never been).
Here’s the kicker though: it’s working and I don’t have an explanation.
I’m not avoiding any situation really; I know it’s there and I fully embrace it and prepare for it. I know every option.
God? It’s not that I don’t believe in God because I do, but, well, I’m not going to get into that argument online.
Karma? The whole “what goes around comes around” thing? I’m not so sure. Maybe, but it still doesn’t quite fit.
At this point, I’ve started calling what’s going on a part of the “Rules of the Universe” because I have nothing better to either call it or describe it.
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It’s a work in progress.